Self and reader, I apologize

Dear Me and My Readers,

Firstly, I apologize. The reason I haven't posted in almost forever is because, well, I kept chastising myself for not having worked out in two weeks. And that led to shame, and self-deprecation, which in turn led to no posts for you or me. Of course, this little wrench in the machine began as me being too tired and on spring break, and making excuses to myself but also not beating myself up about not working out, which was what I told myself I would do. But, then it just continued with unmotivated me, saying it was ok, and then saying it was not ok, and then freaking out, and being to ashamed to post anything. So, this cycle has to stop. I really can't work out tonight, as I have to work and then get up early tomorrow. But, tomorrow night, I'm going to do it. I have to keep myself accountable.

In other news, I may be getting a tattoo soon. Last Spring Break I had just had a terrible break-up, was miserable, completely depressed, angry, and so down on myself. I had this idea for a tattoo that I of course wanted to get RIGHT THEN, but I made a deal with myself. If I wanted this tattoo in a year, I would get it. And I still want it. I want to get the word "evolve" on the inside of my left wrist. I originally wanted it in Ani DiFranco's handwriting from her album/song of the same name, but now I'm not sure. I may instead get it in a typewriter font with a period at the end.

Ok, I PROMISE I will be better about posting. And working OUT.


Love, me.